“Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people? If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ.” Galatians 1:10 NIV
I have always been pretty independent. A leader by nature. However, I picked up patterns of people pleasing along the way. Particularly for approval of those that I cared for and respected. The most dramatic crossroad happened for me in ministry. I was serving in a ministry that was not feeling aligned with what I was sensing from the Holy Spirit. I ignored occasional internal conflicts. Finally, God spoke. Audibly. Loudly. He asked if I loved Him. Of course I said yes! He asked again and I said yes again. He asked a third time and asked me to walk away from the ministry. Then I began to negotiate with God. Very quietly I heard Him say, “I thought you loved me.” I felt like I had been punched in the gut. I dropped the ministry like a hot potato. Transformation followed with eyes on Jesus all the way. I have never looked back. It has taught me to hold onto things much more loosely and rely on God to direct my steps. I am very thankful and much more tuned in to the guidance of the Holy Spirit.
John 14:16, 14:26, 15:26, 16:7