“Explore me, O God, and know the real me. Dig deeply and discover who I am. Put me to the test and watch how I handle the strain.” Psalm 139:23 The Voice
I read this verse today and thought “Why in the world would I ask for this?” Search my heart and mind and soul and desires and put them all to the test. Huh. I really have to think about that.
Then I read the entire Psalm, verses 1-24. What I saw was all the beauty of intimacy and unconditional love and reliance on God. I am foolish to think that I can hide anything from Him. I am also foolish not to realize that He decided to love me long ago… anyway. He knew about every bad decision I was going to make before I did. All of them. And He loves me anyway. He still showers me with love and compassion and His tender mercy. There are days that I feel like I can wrap my head around a small piece of His love for me but I always know that it’s so much bigger than I can even imagine. It makes me thankful and gives me encouragement to continue to stretch into the person that He designed me to be. It also gives me courage and strength to love others the way He loves me….anyway.